11.08.02 - 15:10
Today I feel: Terribly sad
Music of the Moment:Stevie Nicks - Crystal
Something: I hate Aol, and it hates me
Well, my Happy happy OB/GYN pap smear results came back. Abnormal. I have an appointment in December to run tests to find out what that means for me. The doctors don't know yet, but they have some lovely ideas. They called yesterday, and wouldn't/couldn't tell me anything, and so as I hung up the phone, I just broke. I started a serious crying jag, and Waylon ran in and started holding me and asking me what was wrong, so of course after I calmed enough, I told him. He's been majorly supportive, through getting me well again, to holding me while I cried for a few hours.
I am a little scared, wait, no, strike that. I am more than a little scared. Im terrified of what it could mean. And to top it off, my mother has decided its nothing. We got into a huge fight this morning about it, and we just aren't on speaking terms right now. And she doesn't understand why I won't talk to her either. Well, maybe her insensitivity will hit her in the ass soon. I don't know, and I just don't want to see her anytime soon.
Anyway, I need to wrap this up, cause Im due at work in less than an hour.
